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I'm so glad you wrote, and that I saw your post and read it.
My father took off about eight years ago and as an adult, I chose to let him go without trying to maintain a relationship. His leaving ironically changed my life for the better. I was able to grieve the past, and the pain he caused, to talk about the things he did that hurt me for the first time. He never abused me, but was a compulsive cheater and sometimes involved me in his secrets when I was a small child. And I carried those secrets with me until he left and I finally felt like I could tell my mother.
But I wonder what it will be like when he passes. Will it be months before I know? Or will I hear about it the same day? I don't know. And I wonder how I'll feel and if I'll go to the funeral. It feels like he's already been gone.
Thanks for writing.
Amy
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