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Originally Posted by kburch

I know it's been a long time since I posted, even though I try to keep up with what's going on with ya'll.

Anyway, long story short, my mom just received notification today that my dad passed away on August 13. So, really, he's been gone for three months, but it's still quite a shock. It should be fairly obvious (by the lack of knowing about it) that my dad was not close with any of my family anymore. But part of me still doesn't want to accept the fact that I'll never have another chance to say goodbye. I was still holding out hope that someday, my dad would get it together enough to be part of our lives again. Now, that dream, with everything else, is dead.

I'm not even sure why I'm writing this exactly... I'm just hoping it will help me figure out what I'm feeling, because I'm relieved, p***ed off, shocked, numb, sad, and I don't even know what else right now. And I can't help thinking about my boys right now, either, and how they likely face a similar future in regards to their birthparents. Life sure sucks sometimes.

Im sorry to hear about your dad. I dont really know the whole story but it sounds like youre really hurting . You are very much in my prayers. God bless you. Amy