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Old 11-07-2007, 02:30 AM
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Hi Gwen,
Sorry I haven't replied. Am feeling 100% better now and I can be a Mum again! Yay!

Yes I was aware that she is still the eternal 15 year old because that's how old she was when she had me. I've even shared this with her and she agrees but nothing changes.
I'm alot more accepting of this now and I have made a decision to not actively pursue the relationship to see where it takes me. We know each other well enough now that we share the role of contacting each other but she still thinks that she has to "back off" and let me contact her. I'm so tired of this line so I'm just getting on with my life and if she calls and I'm available then great, and if not, then that's just life. The same way I am in any other relationship. No malice or bad thought, just a normal, happy get on with things and I'm happy to share what time I have, when I can. It feels so good to not have my stomach constantly churning and worrying about every little thing.
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