Thank you ladies for your comments.
Linny- thank you for sharing your story. It always helps to know we are not alone in a situation. Also I do try to pray as much as I can, even little prayers. I know that He is guiding me through this process and I trust that the child(ren) He means for me will come when the time is right. Like they say, "He doesnt always come when you want Him to, but He is always right on time! "
Dianna-thank you for your support also. I want to call and maybe in the morning I will have pulled together the strength, but I just wanted to check here (where people seem to know so much, be so supportive and have so much more experience) before I called them. I think more than anything it's the fear of the unknown and of rejection, I would be elated and scared if they said they could work with me and I would be heart broken if they said they could not. But you are right, facing the music is the best way to go.
May His angels keep you both on your adoption and parenting journeys.
Thanks agian.
Oh ya I'll let you know what they say
