Oh ani I'm sorry too! I've had those moments.
There was one that just came to mind. I was with my father in Nicaragua and he was really proud that he had just memorized a Psalm (I think). He came to the verse where it says "he knit me together in my mother's womb." Wow did I lose it after that. My pain is still very raw. Hang in there, I think a lot of us can identify with you.
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Life is beautiful, but it's complicated.
We barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are
miracles, miracles.
Yeah, life is beautiful.
Our hearts, they beat and break.
(Vega 4)