diva wrote
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To be honest, had MY bmom told me from the beginning when I had asked the honest truth, our reunion would have gone quite different. Because then I would have known that she "owned" it.
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Its getting to the owning part that is hard.. Rose have you really sorted what happened?
I have terrible guilt around the way my bson was conceived.. There is some not knowing in my story.. and my bson and I are distant..
I keep trying to find a way of ‘owning’ what happened in 1964 in Boston.. but I cant..
I have forgotten things.. I was told to forget and I gratefully accepted.. I forgot an awful lot of those months in Boston..
It was my way of running from my past.. And I have turned around and stood in what I did.. I have owned the realization of what I had started..
But I still got a place in me that can not fess up..
Rose can you ask the adoptive parents as to whether she knows?
I know of one man.. an adoptee that was conceived by a gang rape.. and he considered his birthmom someone that had survived a terrible ordeal.. (my take on his posts in another place)
I was not raped.. I just kept throwing myself out into danger when I knew it was there..
Jackie