[thanksgivingmom]

My parents did not know about the pregnancy, so did not know about her placement.

They still don't know.

I hope someday I will be able to tell them. I will hopefully be able to find the strength to do it for DD.

I have no desire to tell them though. I don't want it to change how they look at me, how they treat me, what they think of me. I do completely realize this is entirely unhealthy and that theoretically they could support me, but I truly honestly feel they will not understand what I did, nor will they (my mother specifically) forgive me for placing her grandchild.