Thank you for replying.
You are correct in assuming i am early in the pregnancy. Problem is , i feel like i have no time at all. if I chosse the abrtion route, i dont have much time.
i cant stress enough that I dont want to do that and I dont advocate it. I never thought i would be in a position where I would even consider it.
But i cant rely on a maybe or something unsure. I either have to abort the pregnancy, or have a way that i know I can be taken care of (and my two kids) in order to carry the child to term.
Problem is that is a huge load for any one to take on. it is not something I am expecting, but rather was thinking this morning what if anything i could do, to be able to financially afford not having to end this pregnancy. I hope i am not offendig anyone by even talking about the "A word'" .
i probably should not have posted this, as when i reread it, i think how ridiculous it must sound that i cant even afford to carry a baby to term. i thought i was so careful.