[Arruniel]

I'm a bmom. I wanted a closed adoption, but I was persuaded to consider semi-open. I did get a broader choice of couples. Then the agency and the couple talked me into allowing an open adoption. I either had to pick a new couple or deal with it. I love my child. I like seeing her. I wish I could say they did me a favor, but all I can say is, I love my daughter. I want the best for her, so now I'm stuck in an open adoption.

P. S. After I gave birth to her, I didn't want to give her up without the chance of seeing her again. I felt so conflicted. I also felt guilty for not wanting to see here again, so at least OA took me of the hook there.