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I'm only going to answer number four.
Firstly, I don't regret the adoption. I've spent a lot of time thinking over things and I've learned to accept that things went the way they did, and you know what? all told it wasn't bad! It was actually really sweet... and still is.
However, I think Finleigh's parents think I may regret the adoption. When I hold her during visits I'll look up and one of them will be looking at Finleigh and I and have this sad face. It's my fault I haven't communicated to them that I'm okay, that I don't regret this, that I love them very much, and am so proud of them as a couple and as parents.
I think their way of dealing with what they think is my regret and possibly their subsequent guilt is allowing me to visit and reminding me every time we communicate through email or on the phone that I'm welcome to come over and see her.
That bothers me because I would like for the time together to be brought on because they want to have me in their lives, not because they want to "help" me through this.
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