[lahdh4]

Originally Posted by loveajax

I'm sorry, Leigh......

This is going to sound horrible, but I hope that you can take it as a "compliment" to you...

DD's birth parents are GREAT...really, realy nice people and so respectful fo us....And I like to think we are respectful of them as well ( actually, I know we are).

You know what's "scary" sometimes to me....DD's birth parents could definitely have parented her ....and very well (they parent two other children)....And sometimes the "better adjusted' and "more loving, normal" birth mom, the HARDER OA is...you know? It's like it's MORE threatening in that darnit, DD's birth parents could be parenting her and well....I know that's so hard...b/c it's like "heads I win" (I have a dysfunctional birth family and don't want contact), tails you lose (i have a great birth family that makes me insecure)....I'm sorry!!!!

No need to apologize. I am still having a hard time trying to get my heart to listen. It sucks. Reading your post reminds me of some things that have happened and L and I responed the same way. Things that we agreed on about Supergirl learning to swim and playing and things like that.
Right now my heart is hurting because I haven't seen her since last year. I hurt because I cannot call up and ask for a visit. I hurt because I cannot ask for things and continue to be a doormat and accept whatever is given to me.