[lucyjoy]

You need to decide you can parent this child as an only child without resentment or you need to not parent him.

Do not let fear that you won't get another placement guilt you into keeping a child you are not ready to parent. Guilt does not make a good foundation for a relationship.

And people do foster and adopt after disruption.

It will be very, very hard with this boys history for him to find a placement willing to take him. He does need treatment for his sexual issues. They won't just disappear.

You are in a very painful position. I hope you can find some peace in whatever decision you make.