I'm with you Brown! In letters and in life I always refer to D and A's Mom, not amom or anything but Mom. (okay, lets be honest, I don't talk about it in life really because as most of you know, no one in my life knows, but you know what I mean! At least to the social worker
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It can be so confusing sometimes to try to balance the selfish feelings with the confidence I have in the choice I made. Like I don't deserve to have the jealous feelings because I only have them because of a choice I made. Does this make sense?
And it makes me so mad sometimes that others want to say I can't have my angry feelings because at the end of the day, it's my fault I have them.
Honestly, I am so worried about how I would react if/when I hear DD's Mom say "My daughter this..." or "My daughter that..." in front of me. I know she has every right in the world to do it, but I know I might not be able to handle my emotional reaction, and I wish i could...