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Thank you for this post. I've nearly been brought to tears, in that I know I'm not alone. I have zero reason to be upset/angry/fearful towards our birthmom. She is wonderful; in fact, her entire family is and I love having them as part of our family. But that "entitlement" issue is what's been eating at me. I want DD to see her birthmom, I want her to know where she comes from, I want her to be able to ask those questions, I want her to see what a good person her birthmom was AND is. But at the same time, I hate fearing I will ever play second fiddle. She's given me NO reason to think it. Our friends/family think we're "great" for doing the OA and can't imagine how we can - that they never would. I can't imagine doing anything else for DD at this point... but does that mean I can't still have this range of emotion, both good and bad?
Oh thank you for this post. Knowing that others are juggling this makes it seem easier, that I'm not just overanalyzing myself to death.
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Lori
Mom to TWO angels:
 An angel in heaven, Rachael Marie (05/09/05 - 01/06/06) - taken from this earth far too soon due to complications from her diagnosis of Spinal Muscular Atrophy, Type I
 An angel on earth, Isabella Grace (born 07/03/07) - placed in our arms 1 hour after birth, through a wonderful open adoption
Hoping to adopt again down the road...
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