[tanmansmom]

[quote=Runyan2002]My adoption truth?

Basically....I'm selfish in my role as my son's mother. I don't want to share it, and I don't want him to share his feelings he has for me for anyone else but his mommy and daddy.

I have a relationship somewhat like what you have with the bparents but not that extreme. My truth? I want to quit. I want to run. I want to forget that he could have a bond with someone else and want to know them.

Another ugly truth? I don't want him to find anything in common with them. I want him to only feel safe and at home with us.

You read my mind! I think we are all so grateful for our children that we feel that we have to be willing to say that we will, in some way, share them. I'm not willing to share! At what point can I stop being his amom and be his mom? I resent putting an "a" before mom because although I appreciate that someone else birthed him, I have been there every second of his life. I will continue to be there. I understand that his bmom may love him and birthed him, but I love him and mother him every second of every day. We still aren't final because the bfather can't be found so we have to now go through the papers. I resent, RESENT the fact that this man (and I use this term loosely) can run out of fear of obligation, but can at this point waltz back in and decide to parent. Thank you for this thread that allows us to put aside the politically correct rhetoric of adoption and voice our raw emotions. Logic and understanding will prevail again for me tomorrow, but for today it was nice to vent.