[Vogi2002]

My adoption truth?

Basically....I'm selfish in my role as my son's mother. I don't want to share it, and I don't want him to share his feelings he has for me for anyone else but his mommy and daddy.

I have a relationship somewhat like what you have with the bparents but not that extreme. My truth? I want to quit. I want to run. I want to forget that he could have a bond with someone else and want to know them.

Another ugly truth? I don't want him to find anything in common with them. I want him to only feel safe and at home with us.

We all have these ugly truths. They are a part of the process. Some, if not most of them, we will have to come face to face with and deal with on our own. Just knowing they are there and what these emotions are that you are feeling can help though. Believe me, we each have some ugly truths about ourselves...and it's much better to just dig them up and bring them out in the open...then it's easier to ease them....to put them aside. I don't know if they ever completely go away...but at least we know WHAT we are feeling and that it is normal to feel that way.

I just posted another ugly truth about the word "mom" earlier today. Must have been a confession day for me!! LOL