[nikkianni]

Far from sucking, I think you are very brave. Not only to be so honest here, but with yourself. It's a powerful thing to do.
So here's my truth: I live in total abject fear of losing my DD. What if someday she looks at me and says, "I want to be with my REAL parents" and walks out the door forever?
That thought hovers over my head every day. As much as we love her, as honest as we'll be about her adoption, bparents, etc. Regardless of us supporting her meeting them when she's ready to, what if she just decides we totally screwed up and she wants nothing to do with us?
How can we stop it from happening? Are we already starting down that road?
When I let myself think about it I start obsessing about it. And the worst part is there's no way to know until it's too late.