confused
I am almost 30 and a single mother of a wonderful 20 month old lilltle boy. He is the apple of my eye. But the road has been hard with no support from his father from the day I became pregnant. Now I am pregnant again and don't feel I can take care of 2 children alone. I am considering adoption but I have mixed feelings. I was adopted at the age of 3 and was just reunited with my birthmother/family 3 years ago. We were taken away by the courts from both parents, split up and adopted. My mother went on to have 2 more children making it 5 in all. She tells me that she was heart broken for more than 21 years looking for us. So knowing how it feels to be on the adoptee side and the trauma my birth family had to go through with losing us really confuses me. I feel that this would be the best thing for my unborn child but the pressure is tremendous. What should I do? It's not the same situation to me. But my family won't see it that way.
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