[ssshhh]

I posted a thread a few weeks ago about needing counseling. I was having a lot of feelings coming back after my birth daughter turned 18.
Long story short, I was put on a waiting list to see a counselor at css. During this time all the birth mothers on this forum helped me a lot.
My first appointment was this past Monday. I felt so much more content after the first meeting knowing that I am by far not the only birthmom who has sought counseling through them when our birth children turn 18. I also discussed with my counselor not wanting to take any actions that may hurt my birth daughter or her parents. She gave me much insight on how they may be feeling too.
Tonight, I received a phone call! I talked with my birthdaughter and her mom for the first time in 10 years!
I was nervous, I am sure they were too. I would not change one thing about that call though!
I will continue with counseling during this time because I feel like God had a big hand in this since 3 days after seeing a counselor I received this call and was able to have a good conversation with my birth daughter and her mom. It was light and uplifting. I cried when her mom got back on the phone but reassured her it was tears of joy and thanked her for calling.
I hung up the phone and could not help but think God knew what was going to take place and he wanted me to talk to someone beforehand. I thanked him and feel content and serene. I do not think I would have these feelings if I had not talked with a counselor Monday.
I know we will have ups and downs but I see Gods love tonight and wanted to share it.