[Mamaswheels]

We have always had other families children in our home for many reasons. And going for adoptions was never any problem with my husband or myself. Our first two were almost 10 years apart and totally different situations/kids.Then we sort of fell into the fostercare of the medical specialneeds and couldn't let one go back into a terrible system. We ended up taking guardianship as he wasn't free for adoption.After we had him for almost 10 yrs we filed to adopt with the family agreement.After all of the paperwork was done to start the waiting time he died. We knew he was supposed to not live a long time but had almost forgot as he had managed to go so far.But afterwards we decided to go the extra way and continue with a special adoption.We got a newborn a couple of months later and he is now 6. And then it just seemed we needed more and managed to get a couple of other boys a few years apart from a different state.One is now 10 and the other one was 7 but we lost him this past May. That has been the hardest part when our kids die before we are ready to let go.We have said room for one more so just refiled for any other specialneeds child. But our state has decided that we have to go through the entire paperwork from day one again.So may be a long time to have just the special one come here again.We usually don't take the emotional needs. But one of our adult kids is bipolar.As we are doing the medically kids only now. All of ours are in wheelchairs and are tube fed. Can't imagine life without our kids.