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These are some heart-wrenching stories. I wonder if I will experience the same thing when my daughter gets to the teen years.
As an adoptee, I can tell you that a lot of the time I feel angry at "the system" but many times my a-mom gets the brunt of that anger. It's not her fault that my birth cert is sealed, that she had no information on my birth family, that everything was a secret, but there was nobody else to take the anger out on.
Adoptees feel powerless alot. And when you are at the age of forming an identity, you are CONVINCED your parents don't understand. You are even more CONVINCED that your adoptive parents don't get it.
As much as I enjoy my reunion with my birthmom, she is really not my "mom" - the "mom" that raised me is my "mom". No matter how much anger I spew at her, no matter how much I really don't like her some days and no matter how she can push my buttons, I love her and and she is my mom.
Trust me - I haven't been easy to love. I push people away alot. I would not, however, ever cut-off my mom. I would never, ever do that to her. I'm sorry to those of you who have experienced that.
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