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Yikes! I miscarried at 5.5 months and my doctor asked if I wanted to have a service. I had 2 miscarriages after placing my bson and thought I was being punished, crazy I know, but hey. Then I had my first daughter and my second was born 17 months later! 2 more miscarriages before I had to call it quits - my heart couldn't take anymore. When I was pregnant with my bson it was my mom who came up and asked me if I was pregnant (6 months along). I guess being 5'9" and 125 lbs for the longest time a big belly bulge was fairly noticeable! He was born in July as well so it wasn't like I could hide under bulky sweaters.
I went back through some of our older posts and I think we're doing O.K. Congrats to us for sticking it out and I have a good feeling about everything. I'm taking Ann's advice and appreciating what I have but it's hard not to pick up the phone and call him everyday. I don't know if he would mind or not but I think once a week is about right so I'll test the waters and call him this Thursday (we've met each Thursday for the last 3 weeks) and see. My husband doesn't want to talk about it and my eldest daughter is quite jealous and feeling left out - although she did say if it was just a meet and greet and goodbye she wanted no part of it so I'm going to ask him if we can enjoy our relationship for 6 months or a year or so before putting pressure on the others. Of course, my youngest daughter wants him to be part of her life NOW. She is younger and I don't think she has though everything through as yet. I hope you're well and I'm glad you're helping me along, it's much appreciated.
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