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DT - CONGRATS!

I can appreciate Linny's advice - I know that is how many people cope with this crazy waiting period.

For me, I wasn't able to do that or protect my heart. I just kept thinking, "If we do adopt this baby, would I want to have missed the first 2 weeks NOT letting my heart and mind attached?"

And with our first call, we ended up with a failed match. I'd spent two weeks thinking of two tiny babies who were hopefully going to be "mine".

To me, it was worth risking the heartbreak and not missing out on special days of thinking about them, preparing myself to bond with them. Even after the fact, I did what felt right to me. Their mom decided to parent them, and while we were so upset, it was okay. It was just meant to be that way.

When we got the second call, we tried not to get overly excited, but once again, I didn't want to miss out on even a day's worth of those mom feelings, so I let my heart go. And when I held my son for the first time in my arms the next day, I was already filled with so many hours' worth of time anticipating that moment, and loving him before I even saw him!

I think you should do what feels right to you! Good luck. I cannot wait to read your updates!!!