[Ferney]

I have not been able to come to this forum and discuss anything. I am going through a really painful time. I have decided to "divorce" most of the members of my biological family that I know.

I can't have anything to do with them anymore. They are working on my nerves. Even though I am the one who has lived my life within this open adoption situation, I'm being told what my experiences should be, who I should involve myself with and in what way etc. Because I am not complying I should, as it was told to me, "let go of my hate."

I am so sick of the emotional trash they are putting on me that I am not excepting phone calls from them, contacting them or anything like that. I don't want to have anything to do with them for a good long time if ever again.

I don't want to offend anyone but my situation sucks. I know my situation does not have to be the same for anyone but I would never allow any child I gave birth to within an open adoption. It has been too problematic.

My stomach hurts over this situation. My poor husband, he doesn't know what to do about any of this. I just want to put my head down and weep.

Just explaining my very long absence.