[DASmith]

I know exactly how you feel. I was adopted at birth and 16 months later they were able to have their own daughter. From as far back as I can remember my adad was okay when he wasn't at work( he had to work a LOT of OT to keep up with amom's love to spend) but my amom was a different story completely. She would do things like leave me a list of all the work to be done around house while she and asis would go shopping or swimming or whatever fun stuff they wanted to do. It was bad enough from amom but agrandparents on mom's side treated me even worse. my agrandpa would look at me and nearly snarl or make some rude comment then in the same breath look at asis and say something so sweet. My amom swore from day1 (the day I FOUND my adoption papers) that she had NO intention of ever telling me I was adopted. After I found the papers it got even worse. The BAD thing is now she is alcoholic and manic depressive so All the treatments and stuff she has had has supposedly wiped out all memories of any of that stuff in my childhood. Honestly I think the way she treated me growing up is come back to bite her in the butt and caused all of her problems.. She gets the easy way out ( no memories of the crap she put me through) and I have to live with the memories and unfortunately at this point in my life I just can't forgive her yet. I want to but can't do it....I'm still working on it.....