[mom2GRLC]

I'm wondering if anyone else is having a hard time sharing with friends/family etc. that you are trying to concieve after you've adopted a child/children?

Here's my story...

We've been ttc for 8+ years now either on our own or with the help of a fertility specialist.

We've also been foster/adopt parents for the last almost 5 years now. We always knew we wanted to be parents and raise a family and didn't want to put our lives on hold just waiting for us to become pregnant. So we decided to just do both at the same time. But I never imagined going through life without ever conceiving and bearing a child of our own and having that experience.

We've been so blessed to have fostered 46 children and to be working on our 4th and last adoption. Yet at the same time I feel at such a loss and incomplete. Still waiting and praying for the experience of conceiving a child of my own.

Now as we have begun seeing the infertility doctor again I'm finding it very hard to tell anyone, family, friends, or even our childrens birthfamily members.

I feel like we will be seen as ungrateful for the beautiful children we already have. Or like they will think we have no business having anymore children when we already have 4 young children at home.

I wish i could talk to our family /friends about it seeing that this will likley be a long journey for us and something very close to our heart all along the way. I'm just not sure I can take any critisizm or negativity.

I don't think they will understand WHY this is so important to us....when in their eyes our family is already more than complete with 4 children.