hi
I have different idea on dreams.
There are many types of dreams. Some of them my come from subconcious but some of them are real..
You can really visit someone in your dream and it is a reality . I know that I visit some of my friends. They visit me. it is just a matter of learning how to do.
I always had problems with my brother. I have not talked with him since 2003 but when he is happy or in trouble with something for ex classes, ilness etc. I see him in my dream. I dont really think about him everyday but I just know how he is.
Once ,in my dream I saw that he had lost all of his hair in that dream he was a child and I was preparing egg for him. That time, I had asked my mother how my brother is and she sad that he was ill and he had hard time with one of his classes.
I am not an adoptee but my parents did not approved my husband and for years we did not see each other. I only talked with my aunt.
I did saw them in my dreams or when I was just sitting
I sometimes saw them in the walls :P.. I could talk with them and right away I knew that they heard me. My aunt, then was telling me in the phone "you know your mother saw you in her dream you said "... " , I knew beforhand because that was not a dream.
One thing which is still difficult is feeling their pain and hurt so much and not being able to change it. Thier anger and pain really freezes me. it was a constant feeling coming from them.
Being so emphatetic has that consequience I guess. until they let me go , I was really imprisioned.
The motherday and the holidays we used to celebrate was hard for me. But it was not my pain I felt. it was theirs.
Anyways
Your children do feel you.
You may really know even in a closed adoption what is going on in your childs life.