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I was recently talking with my cousin who with his wife adopted a boy from Rumania several years ago. I know they had a rough time with his mother who didn't see M as their "real" son. I was telling C that I had reunited with D. I could sense from his response (I don't remember the exact words.) concern that I would interfere in D's family. (that basically I had no right to do so - He expressed relief that there wasn't much likelihood of M ever being to reconnect with his birth family.) Sigh!

Jenna, when I gave birth to D, I wasn't even able to see him when he was born, he was immediately removed from the room. My dad was very much against my mother and me walking down to the nursery to see him. (I don't think I ever told him that I insisted on seeing - and Holding him - before I signed the final papers.) His reasoning, common at the time, was that it would be much harder on me. By the way, he finally met D on Christmas Day. They seemed to like each other.

I wonder if your uncle holds that old belief that you will "heal better" if you don't see Munchkin. About that feeling of insecurity - it appears pretty clear from what you've written that Muchkin's aparents truly wish you to be part of their lives. That you and Josh and Nick enrich their lives as well.