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After I placed my son I struggled for a very long time before having another child. I was not in any way financial or emotional able to have another child. I have been married for 7 months, my hubby and I have been together for 10 years, I have a 4 yr. old daughter with him. When I found out I was pregnant with her I went through a lot of emotions. Guilt mostly, I wondered if he would understand, I wondered if he would hate me for having another child, and not keeping him, I wondered if he could ever forgive me. But after having a very long talk with my sister, my father (who regularly see's my son) I knew it would be ok. My daughter (13) absolutly loves my 4 yr. old, I am also raising my step son and have been since he was 2. He calls me Mom, my 13 calls my hubby Dad, we are our own little family, I know some day my son will understand the choice I made and that it was right for him at the time. I can say it didn't help with the healing process, I did grieve the loss all over again, with my family and in private. Just wanted to share my story, maybe some food for thought.
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