[love4]

To survive I had to let go. Let go of any expectations. Any hopes and dreams I had for my daughter and I. I cried a lot. She wanted nothing to do with us.

My daughter was angry at the confusion of adoption. She took it all out on me. When she was 14 she thought I stole her. The anger at me was intense and it was painful for me to be so rejected. I felt such empathy and also very helpless to help her. She went through counseling. It helped somewhat. Love sometimes is just not enough.

Things are better but the pain of rejection still lingers. She is beginning to see a clearer picture. She knows where she belongs now and is coming to a place of peace. I am here for her always. Hard.......very hard. Not many understand.