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Wow, you've done a lot of soul-searching and praying. I'm not going to give any answers here, but ask a few questions, in hopes they might help you think along a few different lines. I am a Christian adoptive mother of two, and I remember the idealism I had before adopting, and now I have a different perspective having gone through some of the "hard times" in child-rearing.
First of all, what kind of child are you seeking? An infant? An older child? I actually think this makes a difference. I do agree that God's ideal plan includes a daddy and a mommy for each child. Of course, in this imperfect world this does not always happen. For starters, I think you should do some research on what a baby goes through being separated from birthmom. The Primal Wound is a classic that is well worth reading. The adopted child IS NOT like a biological child in how they attach to you or in how they perceive the world. It is MORE DIFFICULT to raise an adopted child than a biological child, all other things being equal.
Think too about your financial resources and your time. Can you spend time at home. Will you have to work fulltime? Especially an infant or child under school age will need you A LOT for the first weeks, months, or years.
Also, do you plan on ever marrying? How will a child affect your ability to date? Or marry? Do you have lots of family support and close friends to babysit and help out? Do you have dispensable money for babysitting?
If you don't mind me asking, how old are you?
You have so much to think about here, I'm going to put you on my prayer list and please update us. We will support you on this board no matter what your decision.
Jane
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