[Snow White]

Hi,
I cannot believe that your parents kept choosing adoption for your baby, even though you did not want to. I know you were young but couldn't they see your pain? I am sure that if you wanted to give your son to the adoptive parents, it would have been painful as well, but you would have felt differently if it was your choice. When I was eighteen, I got pregnant as well and my dad pushed for me to have an abortion. I always listened to everything my dad said but that time I told him I could not do that. Luckily for me, the father of my baby was very supportive and therefore we decided to be parents. Now we are married and our son is almost sixteen. I cannot imagine my life without him. We also have another son and we adopted a newborn baby girl a year and a half ago. She is the daughter of a young teen mom who just turned 18 this September. She chose us as the adoptive parents for her daughter and we saw the pain she had to go through to part with her daughter. I cannot imagine how hard that must be. But your situation is even more difficult due to your feelings of being unsupported and pushed to give up your child whom you wanted to parent.
Had I been the adoptive mom of your son, I could not have adopted him knowing how you felt. It was so important to me that the birthmom was very sure of her choice. I wanted to help, not hurt someone.
I hope that you can find a new relationship with your son and that he will bring you joy.