I got pregnant unexpectedly in my senior year of college, and it was a shock to say the least. My son's father and I were not together a year yet. I can't imagine even now how I managed to graduate and make the deans list while I was falling asleep during the first trimester!
I first felt that my pregnancy was de-railing my whole life. It was so out of order! I hated telling my parents, I felt like I had failed them. I was planning on law school and the whole professional thing. My relationship with my now husband of 8 years wasn't all that seasoned.
But we got through it.
My son was born when I was 22, and I didn't marry his father till the following year. Yes, it took me off MY course that I thought I had set for myself but it was a total blessing and gift. I was given a gift in my son. I had to stop and realize it wasn't about me, but perhaps it was about my baby. Maybe he needed to come along when he did, he needed to be born, I needed to be his mom.
The epilogue to this story is that we scraped by, we got married, I went to law school, graduated, took the bar exam 37 weeks pregnant with my second baby, became a lawyer (whoopee, not as hot as it sounded when I was 22) and life went on.
My unexpected pregnancy didn't ruin me. It was a blessing in disguise. It made me stronger. And had I made any other choice but to keep my son, I would be missing SO much.
Just one other perspective for you to consider. If you have the support you need, sometimes the other things fall into place in their own time.
Hugs to you as you make the decision that is right for you and your unborn.
