Hello Angel, I have to say, i feel ya on this one! I have had horrible issues dealing with my adoption my entire life (and still in the process) and then to make matters worse i found my sister (bmom didnt want to meet me) Sis and i get along great and things are fine, but I also found out bmom had sis (who is 16 months older than me) then she had me and gave me up, and then she had my brother (who is younger, like 12 or so). Dealing with being the middle child and being the one 'she didnt want' has been very tough. I personally dont have any recommendations on any books, although i am writing a paper for school on adoption and the effects on adoptees lives. Hey, mabye I will post it in the forum when i am finished! But there is alot of info out there for us adoptees try google-ing some stuff. Good luck, and just wanted to let you know someone else feels the way you do. And i am not too much older than you either, i am 28 as of Nov. 1. Need to talk let me know ok? I am here for you (and everyone else here too for that matter!!
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Karli