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I find it a bit similar to getting dumped when you are going steady or something like that. You start to wonder if you had anything of substance in the relationship to begin with and feelings like that. Was I simply a babysitter or more of a foster mom, did she think of me that way or at all...and what does that validate? Anything, something...I always said to people when they asked about her and I knew nothing and told them the situation, "I raised her and i will always have that and am thankful for it." This feels better though. Much better.
I never adopted to save a life or for any of those reasons, I adopted because I wanted to raise a daughter in my lifetime and have a daughter and now I know I do. It feels pretty darn GREAT!
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