Yes it is a hard thing to think about what does she want??? What did she give up?? What did you give up?? What do you really want? What are you really afraid of>>> These are the questions that are going through your mind and the have the right to. This is the biggest emtional roller coster that you will ever be on in your life.
And there is nothing you can do about it right now but take the ride, you can set the pace, speed of the ride. But as soon as you think you have got everything on track you will hit a bumb and the ride will begin again. You can be the most controlled person in the world and this will, begin to control you.
You must stay strong and in control and even at that you will be hurt in some way. Its sad but true.
You can have a mind set that you wont be hurt and you can deal with everything but one day you willbe driving down the reoad, walking in the park and your emotions will take over. THe fear, the joy, the saddness, the questions and all the other stuff that goes along with this will be more than oyu can take,, just yell, scream cry do what ever you need to do and let out all the emotions... we all do this is our own way. We have to.
I am the child not the parent I found her and them him, a total roller coaster. Her not the great and still waiting for the bmum to come around, found the bdad had a great time for about 2 years then he pasted.
Not enough time so take everything you get from bmum and move forward at your own pace but always know that you might not get another chance.
So let your heart do what is right but make room for others in some form you might not get the chance again
Searched, FOund, Deined, Loved. then death
THis shoulf not happen to others
Dana