Thanks Love, I try!
Actually, it's weird that you should say that about college. When I found out I was pg the few weeks before I left, my friends all pushed me towards abortion, it wasn't a verbal thing, it was just assumed that I would do that, and I was so numb I went along with it. DD's b-dad being a knucklehead actually bought me time (I couldn't pay for the proceedure myself I needed his help and he kept bailing on me) and I had to go to college still pregnant, 800 miles away in a whole new part of the country. that's where my new friends kept asking what my choice was, it was such an eye opener, i forgot that I had a choice, and that I wasn't comfortable with the choice everyone had made for me. Oddly enough, a few years later b-dad confessed that he was glad I chose adoption, because he's actually against abortion, but never told me. (don't know why he never did
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See? Everything does happen the way it does for a reason. Baby steps, and I hope everything works out for you !