We tried foster to adopt in 2001. It's not for the faint of heart. God bless those who can go into that, knowing that losing a child is a possibility. We need people who can love these children unconditionally, knowing that they may not parent the child forever, but it just about killed me.
We tried to adopt a boy who was born addicted to cocaine, methadone ( I didn't know that could be an addiction, but it was on his papers as one), alcohol, and 2 prescription drugs. Biomom and dad (married, in their 40s) were both users, and continued to use. J. was in the hospital for a month, then went to a foster home. His grandparents go to Florida each winter (he was born in Nov. 2000) and didn't want him. However, in the spring, he came to us as foster adopt. Just when there were no changes, and the goal was talking about being changed to adoption, the grandparents decided they didn't want him to be adopted. As quickly as that, at 8 months, he was taken from us. Since he hadn't been with us 6 months, we didn't even have a right to appeal and talk about how hard the transitioning had been for him, ask to have him stay with us until the bio parents could get their act together.
I couldn't get over it. It just about killed me.
5 1/2 years later, I have my Russian angels. I truly appreciate them now, knowing that I can't take them for granted, and knowing that no adoption can be taken for granted.
Keep looking, follow your heart. You will find the way that is best for you
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Katrina, PROUD MOMMY OF 3!!!!!!
Mom to two boys, 8 and 5, adopted from Moscow, and
Mom to a 6 year old girl, adopted from Seoul.
Special needs mommy with experience with FAS, dyslexia, ADD, FAE, CP/spastic quadriplegia, global developmental delay, and so in love with my kids it hurts!