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For me, adoption was something I NEVER thought that I would do. I had two biological boys, and throughout both pregnancies, I wanted a little girl so much (now I wouldn't trade my precious little boys for all the girls in the world) that some people mentioned that I should consider adoption. I read a local newspaper article last spring about a couple here in my town that adopted from China. I was surprisingly so moved by it that I began to think about what it would be like to adopt myself. There were so many obstacles at first and so much research that it kind of overwhelmed me and I shyed away from it. Then, as the weeks progressed, I just began to see all kinds of adoption stories in front of me (on tv, in my community, etc.). I felt like God was putting in front of me and slowly growing the idea in my heart. I prayed and prayed and talked to my husband. He was completely turned off to it at first. He prayed and we talked and researched. We had no idea where the money would come from. Oddly, everything just kind of fell together within a few months. My husband came around and God just changed and opened his heart. My mom has been AMAZING and has basically just funded it all for us (she is working two jobs so that we can make this a reality....I am looking for a part-time job that I can work on evening or weekends so that I can still stay home with my boys but also start to repay her). But most importantly, I got to a point where I just thought about my life and I could not see us not adopting. I just felt like it was a life experience that I needed and this child was already a part of me (whoever she is wherever she is). I told Ernie that I thought if we did not do this I would deeply regret it later, but if we did do it then he would never ever regret it later. I really do feel like it's a matter of what your heart is telling you to do. I do think you need to think about it and be careful and do your research, but at some point, you just know that this is for you. Before we made the desecion, we had made somewhat of a financial plan, talked to our three year old a little, and just really crunched through things. So, yeah, go with your heart. Everything may or may not be easy...there's sure to be ups and downs, but eventually, it will all fall into place.
Timberly
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