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My best friend used to say that she can almost pinpoint the exact day my DD was born without knowing, because I start getting distant on the first day of the month and gradually get more and more emotional as the month wears on, until her b-day at the end of the month, and then poof, I'm back to normal the next day. This is so sub conscious, I don't even know I'm doing it.
The first few years were rough. Like I don't want to get out of bed rough. It got better tho. Finally on her 10th b-day I decided to make the day about me. I take off from work and indulge in a shopping spree and it makes me feel better. It should be a day of celebration, the day I brought someone new into the world, the day I helped someone elses dreams come true, and it's a time to remind myself how I did the most difficult and bravest thing I've ever done, and it's made me a better person for it. I still get sad, but it helps to take control and put a positive spin on it!
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