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Tee, your feelings are totally normal...and the fact that you can express them is really healthy, I think.
It's so funny you wrote this today because I honestly don't have feelings/worries, etc. of jealousy. I am really happy that DD will know (and love, I hope, and presume) her birth family. But there was a post today by an adult adoptee whose birth mom wanted to be with her when she put on her wedding dress on the day of her wedding and this adoptee felt guilty about saying "no" to her birth mom. And all I could think was, "I WILL BE WITH MY DD when she gets ready for her wedding, goshdarnit!" Mind you, DD is 17 months old!!! So I too have these irrational thoughts creep in sometimes too!!
Anyway, hang in there!! I think it's great to be able to express your feelings without worrying about being judged! I always say that adoption is not for the faint of heart (for either birth or adoptive parents, obviously).
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