|
We RESPECT you!!
Schatz,
Please don't worry that your child's adoptive mother thinks you are "worthless." It's just the opposite!! Without YOU, she would never know what is feels like to be a mother. She wouldn't have all of the kisses and hugs and love that she is getting from her/your child. I, for one, have ENORMOUS respect for my son's birthmother, and ANY birthmother, for that matter.
My definition of love is doing whatever is best for another person no matter how much it hurts. That is what you did when you placed your baby for adoption. In order to override your pain and maternal instincts, you must have been 100% committed to doing what you believed was BEST for your baby. That isn't the action of a "worthless" person.
I am in a semi-open adoption, and my son's birthmother has chosen not to contact me -- she just wants pictures and letters, which we provide. I often wonder about how she is doing. I pray for her regularly, as does my family. I pray that God will help to ease the pain in her heart. I pray that the letters and pictures I send will reassure her that her son is happy. Even though we have an arrangement where we never see each other, I think about her, her life, and her pain. If I can be this "in tune" with the sacrifice that she made, I would imagine that an adoptive parent who actually sees you -- and the pain in your eyes -- would be even more "in tune."
Your child's adoptive parents probably prayed for years to have the honor of raising a child. YOU provided the answer to that prayer. You are their ANGEL!! Please don't question your worth.
I hope that Skye, or another birthmother who has walked the walk, can help you through your grief. I cannot imagine the pain that you must feel, and I deeply respect your love for your child. Not many people would endure this kind of pain to give somebody else a better life.
- Faith
|