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Reality is that "everything happens for a reason and life is what you make it".
I gave my child up at 16 yrs old. I was a healthy non smoking female with no addictions to drugs or alcohol. I gave my child up in an open adoption. I probably would not have gone through it but when you say your carrying a child and giving it up everyone has a friend who wants a child. So I got this info and this woman contacted me. I didn't like her so I wrote the adoption agency she went through and gave them my requirements. They sent me resumes and some crazy people want a child. I decided on two couples and let the adoption agency know. One of the couples was out of the country and so by fate my child went to the other couple. This couple was not perfect but I trusted them. They had a daughter they had adopted and she would be my sons big sister. I had my baby in the hospital with me for 2 days and they came and we met and then I said good bye. I asked for picures I asked for letters and like alot of birthmother I was betrayed. So don't give up hope, but know this is the hardest decision she will ever make so respect her. When you hold you baby in your arms know that its your baby and you will love it for ever. Also know that there is another woman out there who was doing the right thing for herself and her child, but that she wakes up every morning with stretch marks and empty arms. Also think about this if you truly just want to share your love with a child become a foster parent. I my self was thrown away not given up for adoption and my foster mother died last year but she was my heroe and I know she is with me every day. I want to give birth again in a couple of yrs but if fate became nasty and I couldn't concieve I would be a foster parent. I hope what I said will help you or maybe give you some healthy ideas. Good luck and don't give up!!!!
Darcy