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Anati, my heart goes out to you, especially in light of your divorce and the two children. My DH, Andreas, told me the other day when I was agonizing about our adoption...
We weren't put here on this earth to have a good time. We were put here to learn and build character. You cannot build character through only positive experiences. Through the difficult times, how you rise to the occasion and what you learn from those difficulties is the true measure of character.
It stopped me in my tracks (well, I was in the shower, crying, at the time, so it stopped me shampooing my hair, basically).
He is so wise, and he is so right. All these things that are weighing heavily on you will be lessons learned but also, will help you become a stronger woman by making it through the experience.
I say, let your parents know that you are again expecting, and it was not planned. See if they rise to the occasion to help you. I am sure they will. Then your housing problem won't seem so big anymore.
Jenna gave you really succinct advice about your pregnancy. You have to acknowledge its existence, sweetie. I know you want to stick your head in the sand like an ostrich or put your head under your wingfeathers like a bird but every passing day, your baby is growing inside you.
You have proven what a strong woman you are just by the two children you now have, and the marriage that you disentangled yourself from.
I know you are struggling. We all have big struggles... you can make it through this!!!!
Huge Hugs of support,
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