We now know where our missing 14-year old minor birth mother is. However the situation is "dangerous" for anyone who shows up looking for her. My agency is exploring options, but it looks like our case will most likely go into abandonment. And we will not bring Sabrina home for quite some time - quite possibly never.
We're in our 40s, and this is our first child. I had multiple miscarriages in my 20s and 30s. Long story - but bio children aren't an option for us. Our agency discussed "another referral" today. But we can not let go. Sabrina is in our hearts!
Even if it comes to the point where we will not be able to parent her, we will do whatever it takes to keep her with her wonderful foster mother, and hopefully play some kind of supporting role in her life.
I may need to accept the fact that I am just not meant to be a mother. But it is so hard to let go of a dream that I have had for over 20 years. Ironically we received another update with pictures today. Our sweet Sabrina, whom we love so much, just gets more beautiful every day!
Please pray for me. I have never been in a darker place
