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Jenn,
I think it is the longing for knowing something, for a missing piece of who you are. I think, especially when we don't know who they are we build up a fantasy of who they are and what the circumstances were and what may have been. I think it is perfectly normal that you feel like you do, if you didn't there wouldn't be so many people out there searching for that "family" they never knew. I understand what you are speaking of because I have always loved my bmother without knowing who she wasWhen she deied contact in the beginnig, I was terribly upset and really missed her. I think it is the contection of something that you physically belong to, are a part of something, share something with (genes) that as an adoptee you have never shared that with. Good luck, I hope some day you find them.
Carolyn
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Carolyn
"And now I’m glad I didn’t know
The way it all would end, the way it all would go.
Our lives are better left to chance. I could have missed the pain
But I’d of had to miss the dance"
-The Dance by Garth Brooks
*memory of C. Scott Padget, III
"But it's all right now, I learned my lesson well.
You see, ya can't please everyone, so ya got to please yourself
-Garden Party by Ricky Nelson
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