[Mindybeth6]

I can't post from experience because I haven't even entered PGN yet...but DH and I have discussed the possibility that things can go wrong when we enter PGN...which should be next week. We, too, have met our daughter and are going back down there in 19 days to see her again. I can say, that no matter how hard or bad it gets, I won't give up on her. It sounds so easy to say that I wouldn't give up when I haven't been those shoes....but I know in my heart that this little girl is meant to be in my family. She was meant to be our daughter. We don't question that at all. It's a tough fight...am emotional say to day battle that never ends. Until you get "the call." Being in PGN that long I think I would lose 100 pounds and be a mess.....in fact I know that I would. But the cases DO come out...look at Memo. They just don't always happen when we want them to or as quickly as we would like them to. And to get pictures each and every month and watch them grow up is devestating...at any stage of the process. I don't have the right words to say to her. I know having a relationship with God has helped me through the difficult times and I would have to lean on Him in that situation to make it through. I just couldn't give up...I mean what if the call came next week? I hope that they decide to do what is best for their family. I don't know the specifics of the case....but I hope that whatever they decide they have peace about it and can feel like it is the right decision. I would never want to turn away from the adoption only later to regret losing the child.
Much Love