[mom of 2]

My birth son is 21,his sister is 10...i really have looked forward to his turning 21.I told the caseworker at placement i wanted an adoptive set of parents who were open to a semi open adoption.That I would come back to be there for him as soon as was legal.They told me that his adoptive parents considered me as well as him part of their family.So my daughter grew up knowing she had a brother that was being raised by another family,but he was loved as much as her...I think I am reeling because of the (showing up like an exgirlfriend statement) I really realized my bsons parents and I had been on different pages all these years.I feel really used by the agency that misled me...I knew mybson well enough that once I realized his a parents attitude and that they were extremely thrreatened my chances for it all to go easy were slipping away. I am loyal,my daughter is loyal those are genetic qualities , and I knew he would be loyal to them..I never wanted to hurt him