I have no words of wisdom for you. LIke you I am a Natal Mother that relinquished her child.
The pain is incredible, I know , I've experienced it too. There will be days where you don't feel it, I promise you that. and eventually, you will see your child again. My daughter and I reunited after 38 years. Yeah, it was a long time, but that was part of the choices made by her and I. Some reunite when the child is 18, so you really have to hang in there for only seven more years. right?
Quit beating yourself up, you did what you thought was right and most likely was. MOST adoptees are happy, loved and well cared for,although we as Natal Mothers worry about that forever.
Now as to having more children? New things come up daily about fertility and how to have more babies. Don't give up. Even if you can't give birth to another, there are other methods available.
And there is NOTHING wrong with Adoption of another child. We both know that the infant will not take the place of the baby you relinquished but that infant will be your heart, just like your first child. So many children all over the world that would give their baby bottles for parents, or even one parent.
Talk to other women in here with fertility issues. By the way, some have relinquished , have fertility issues too. So you are not alone.
You have a peer group here to sound off to, to tell your pain to and get some encouragement from.
so, in a nutshell HANG IN THERE. Things are not hopeless. I feel your pain and share your grief.
dmca
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