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I understand the desire to want to adopt and not having your husband on board. We have 3 biological children and I have been wanting to adopt for 6 YEARS. It has been a long time but I have grown in my faith in this waiting time and I have learned to honor my husband's fears, opinion (this was big for me), desires etc. Last Feb. I sat down with my husband and told him I did not want to come to the end of my life and not have adopted. That this pull was so strong that I needed to do something about it. With all that I could muster I told my husband that if he did not want to adopt I would honor that. I said I would need to go to God and ask Him what it was I was suppose to do with this desire I felt was from Him. After about a week my husband opened up about the finicial fears he had. He then said let's look into it. We just signed our contract on Monday(7 months later). I also read a book that was wonderful, although was given to me by the agency we are using (5 years ago!) called, The Strength of Mercy by Jan Beazely. I've read it twice now. Her husband too was hesitant for some time. It is a fabulous read! Again, I am not promoting my agency although I have followed them for almost 6 years until we could finally sign! Don't give up on your husband and marriage. God would not want that, your kids would not want that. Going alone is no way to go. Give your anger to God. He can handle it and see what He does with it.
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